breathing in out in out

Kate Bush had a song like that.
sometimes you have to count the breaths when you are in difficulty.
In out in out

Seasons change and the allergens are high.
Unthinkably, I had a full blown asthma attack at work. I think I killed off some braincells on that one. It did not get better. I had to come home early where I have been in bed for 3 days now just trying to breathe.

In out in out.

I quit smoking when a friendly neurologist took me for a stroll through the emphysema ward. "That's you , the wheezer."

It is coming for me I know it.
Sometimes it feels close. Mostly I do not think about it.
BUt when you can't breathe, your thoughts tend to dwell on basic functions.
The worst part is noone can help.

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in out in out
in out in out